It was 2016 A.D.
The thing people lost,
in other words, the complimentation of the mind is on the run.
However, it's too short a time to describe the entire process.
Therefore, we discuss on the complimetation of the mind of
one single boy named Ikari Shinji.
Case 3: In the case of Ikari Shinji.
Fear
Asuka: That I disappear.
Shinji: Yet, I can disappear because I think I am useless.
Rei: Why?
Asuka: Because I am useless.
Shinji: After all, I am a useless child.
Nobody cares me.
Mistato: You run away considering nobody cares you.
You fear to fail.
You fear to be disliked.
You fear to see the weekness within you.
Shinji: You too!
Misato: Right. We are the same.
Ritsuko: Our mind lacks something.
Asuka: So We fear that.
Rei: So we worry that
Misato: So we are trying to be one.
Asuka: We are trying to compliment
by the instrumentality of earch other.
Rei: That's the instrumentality project.
Fuyutsuki: One cannot live without being surrounded by others.
Gendou: One cannot live alone.
Ritsuko: One is always unique.
Ryouji: So, hard.
Asuka: So, sad.
Misato: So, one wish to feel others' mind and body.
Rei: So wishes to be one.
Fuyutsuki: A human is made of weak and fragile materials.
Ritsuko: The mind and body are also made of weak and fragile materials.
Gendou: So necessary is it to compliment
by the instrumentality of each other.
Why?
Gendou: There's no other way to live.
Is that true?
Rei: Why do you live?
I've no idea.
Asuka: I might live to know why.
Rei: For whom do you live?
Asuka: Obviously, for me.
Shinji: Probably for myself.
Is that true?
Rei: You enjoy your life?
Shinji: I wonder.
Rei: You enjoy your life?
Asuka: Of course yes.
Rei: You enjoy your life?
Misato: I don't want to do anything not enjoyable.
Ryouji: You dislike to be sad?
Shinji: I don't like that.
Ryouji: You dislike hardships?
Misato: I don't like that.
Ryouji: So you run away.
Misato: Yes. Do you blame me who runs away from something
I hate.
Shinji: I don't run away.
Rei: Why don't you run away.
Shinji: If ran away, it would be more painful.
Rei: You ran away from something painful.
Shinji: It was painful.
Asuka: You know the pain, then everything's OK.
Misato: You may run away if painful.
Rei: You can run away from something you truly hate.
Shinji: Yet, I don't. I don't want to run away.
No. I shall not run away.
Misato: It's because you already know that running away results
more painful.
Asuka: You know how painful to run away.
Rei: So you don't wanna run away.
Shinji: I say, if ran away, nobody would care me.
Don't desert me! I hope! Don't desert me!
Ritsuko: obaying others words, that's his way to live.
Shinji: Right! Otherwise, I would be deserted.
Asuka: You fear to be hurt.
Misato: You are trying to think so.
Kensuke: Not only you but also others are hurt.
Touji: Everybody feels hardships.
Hikari: You think so, because it's easier for you.
Shinji: Shut up! That's nothing to do with me.
People don't care me.
Misato: And you always desert your value.
Rei: I have nothing.
Asuka: And you try to think yourself valueless.
Misato: Considering that, Doing nothing, one would not be hurt.
Asuka: People try to keep themselves by being praised.
Shinji: NO BODY ACCEPTS ME.
Misato: You are trying to think so.
Shinji: So, I have to pilot Eva.
Misato: You've been trying to think yourself valueless since the
very begining.
Shinji: I have to do so.
Kensuke: No, it's not so.
Touji: You trying to think so, anyway.
Shinji: I am valueless. I have nothing to be prode of.
Asuka: So piloting Eva.
Shinji: Piloting Eva lets me be myself.
Asuka: Piloting Eva lets me be myself.
Shinji: Before piloting Eva, I had nothing.
The fact that I pilot Eva lets me stay here.
Asuka: I have nothing else.
Rei: I have nothing else.
Shinji: I have nothing. NOTHING.
The value to live?
Shinji: No don't I have. I hate myself.
THUS,
Asuka: I hate you! I hate you!
Touji: Me hate you.
Kensuke: I hate everything of you.
Hikari: Sorry, but I hate you.
Ritsuko: I hate you.
Makoto: I hate you.
Shigeru: I hate you.
Maya: I hate everything of you.
Ryouji: I hate everything of you.
Misato: I hate you!
Shinji: Now, everybody hates me.
Probably, people hate me.
Rei: You are trying to think so.
Shinji: NO. Because I hate myself.
Rei: So, you are trying to think others hate you.
Asuka: I hate, I hate I hate you!
Shinji: But, I am praised.
I am praised when I pilot Eva.
I was praised.
So, happy.
Shinji: I was praised by people!
But, not happy.
Rei: Which is your true mind?
Shinji: I don't know, or, both of them are my true minds.
Misato: So piloting Eva.
Shinji: I have nothing but Eva.
Rei: Otherwise you cannot keep yourself?
Misato: It's true that Eva Unit One is part of your mind.
Ritsuko: If you depend on Eva too much,
Eva itself will be yourself.
Ryouji: Eva will be all of yourself.
Misato: The true yourself will be nowhere.
Shinji: It's OK. I've had nothing from the begining.
I've been learning cello, but results nothing.
Asuka: I did not try to do from your side.
Shinji: But, now that I can pilot Eva.
Asuka: And, when you lost Eva, you can do nothing, like me.
Why pilotting Eva?
Shinji: Because it's all of me.
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Final Episode: The Beast that Shouted "I" at the Heart of the World
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NEON GENESIS EVANGELION
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Shinji: Rain, gloomy mood, just like my mood. I don't like that.
Rei: The sinking sun, fading life, my hope. I don't like that.
Asuka: Morning, the begining of today, the begining of
a bad day. I don't like that.
Shinji: Blue sky. Something warm, something not used to,
something horrible. something useless. I don't like that.
Asuka: I hate everybody!
Misato: What do you hope?
Hate anxiety?
Asuka: What do you need?
Hate peace?
Rei: What do you want?
Don't hate me!
Asuka: Don't hate me!
Shinji: What I fear is,
Rejection
Rei: What I need is,
Contact and Approval
Shinji: May I stay by you?
Rei: May I stay here?
Asuka: Do you love me?
Your Mother,
Do you love her?
Asuka: You wanna go your mom's
Asuka: No, I don't.
Shinji: Don't you wanna go your dad's?
Shinji: No, I don't.
Rei: Why not?
Because I fear.
Shinji: I fear to be haten.
Asuka: Because I would disappear.
So what?
Misato: What do you wish?
Erasing anxiety.
Rei: What do you need?
Erasing sadness.
Yui: You are not happy arn't you?
Shinji: Before that, I need. I need my value.
In order to be appreciated, in order not to be
deserted,
I need my VALUE.
Yui: That is what you must admit by yourself.
You must admit your own value.
So piloting Eva.
Shinji: I don't have any value.
Asuka: I don't have the value worth living.
Rei: Then, what are you?
Shinji: Then what am I?
Where am I?
Shinji: What the hell am I?
So, needs the blockade of mind.
Shinji: What? It's me. The shape that I show to others,
the symbol representing me.
This, and this, and this all these are the representation
of me. Nothing but the things that make others cognize me.
What am I? This is me? The true me? The false me?
Rei: You are you. Yet, you have your own region and border.
Shinji: Let's see. My clothes, my shoes, my room.
Those are part of myself.
Rei: The things linked together by your will.
Shinji: The thing that I think myself is me.
I am nothing but myself.
Yet, I don't understand. Where am I?
What am I? What am I?
Nobody understands me.
Asuka: You idiot! That's matter of fact!
Nobody ever understands you.
Misato: The one that takes care of you, and the one
that understands you is nobody but yourself.
Rei: So, take care of yourself.
Shinji: But still I don't have myself, so I don't understand myself.
There's no way to take care of myself.
You are unstable.
Rei: You are still unstable.
Misato: The present you
Asuka: The people around the present you.
Rei: The environment that surrounds the present you.
Misato: None of them doesn't last forever.
Asuka: Your time always flowing.
Rei: You are made of the changing world.
You are the thing that may change according to
your own mind.
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Shinji: What? The world with nothing. The world with nobody.
Shinji: The world of freedom.
Shinji: Freedom?
Shinji: The world of freedom that would never be restrained by anybody.
Shinji: Is this Freedom?
Shinji: Yes. The world of freedom.
Rei: As the result, there's nothing.
Shinji: unless I think.
Misato: Yes, unless you think.
Shinji: What's the hell! I don't know what I should do.
Rei: You are uneasy.
Asuka: You don't have your own image.
Shinji: Too vague.
Misato: Everything is vague.
That's freedom.
Ryouji: The world that you can do anything you like.
Misato: Yet, you are uneasy.
Fuyutsuki: Don't you know what you should do.
Shinji: What shall I do?
Gendou: I give you an unfreedom.
Asuka: Now that you have top and bottom.
Rei: Now that you lost one degree of freedom.
Misato: Now that you have to stand on the bottom.
Ryouji: But you obtain a confort.
Makoto: You get slightly easier in your mind.
Shigeru: And you walk.
Maya: That is your will.
Shinji: Is this my will?
Ritsuko: The world with the bottom is the world surrounding you.
Touji: Yet, you can move freely.
Kensuke: If you wish, you can change the position of the world.
Hikari: The position of the world does not keep the same position.
Ryouji: That changes through the time flow.
Fuyutsuki: You can also change.
Gendou: The things that forms you are your own mind and
the world surrounding yourself.
Ritsuko: Since this is your own world.
Misato: The real figure that you conceive.
That is the reality.
Shinji: This is the world with nothing, the space with nothing,
the world with nothing.
The world with nothing but me.
I am getting less understand myself.
I feel as if I am going to disappear.
My existence is fading away.
Why?
Misato: Because there's nobody but you.
Shinji: Nobody but me?
Misato: Because you have no existence but of yourself,
You can't figure out your own shape.
Shinji: My shape?
My image.
Misato: Yes. You are getting to know your own shape through
seeing others' shape.
Asuka: Seeing others' wall, you imagin yourself.
Rei: You cannot see yourself unless there are others.
Shinji: Because there are others, I can exist.
If alone, I am always alone at anywhere.
The world is entirely by my ..
Misato: By cognizing the difference between you and others,
you form the image of yourself.
Rei: The very first other person is your mother.
Asuka: Your mother is a different person from you.
Shinji: Yes. I am I. Yet, it's true that others form the shape
of my mind.
Misato: That's right, Ikari Shinji-kun.
Asuka: Too slow to understand.
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Asuka: Stupid Shinji!
You wake up now. Stupid Shinji!
Shinji: Oh, it's you, Asuka?
Asuka: You say "It's you Asuka?."
Everymorning, I come to wake you up not to be late
for school. Is that the word of gratitude to say to a
childhood friend?
Shinji: Ah,, I mean thanx, so, let me sleep a little more.
Asuka: What a lazy guy! Wake up! Wake up imediately.
Oh! NO! You, mean stupid horny guy! Unbelievable!
Shinji: It's morning. It's natural.
Yui: Shinji is a lazy kid. He should be more grateful
for Asuka who comes to wake him up.
Gendou: hmm.
Yui: You should stop reading newspaper.
You must be ready.
Gendou: hmmm.
Yui: You are old enough, yet still like a kid like Shinji.
Gendou: Are you ready?
Yui: Yes. It's always me who is scolded by Teacher Fuyutsuki
when you are late for the meeting.
Gendou: Since you attract others.
Yui: Stop saying stupid things. Change clothes!
Gendou: hmmm, I see, Yui.
Asuka: Hurry, Do it immediately!
Shinji: OK, I know, You are too noisy.
Asuka: What are you saying!
Asuka: Now, I am off, Ma'am.
Shinji: I am off.
Yui: Bye! Good luck.
Hey, how long are you reading?
Gendou: hmmm, I see. Yui:
Shinji: I hear that today we also have a new comer.
Asuka: Well, yes. This city will be the new capitol city
after the capitol transfer the next year.
The population is increasing.
Shinji: Right. What kinda girl? I hope a cute girl!
Asuka: Oh,
Rei: Phew.. Late for school! It's very bad to be late for school
from the very first day.
Shinji: (breathing)
Shinji: Oh Ouch! Ouch!
Rei: Ouch! Oh, sorry, I am truly hurrying.
Shinji: Ouch,
Rei: I am very sorry.
Shinji: Oh,
Asuka: gee.
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Touji: Really! Then you see that? I mean the girl's panty.
Shinji: I did not intend to see but, only a moment,..
Touji: WOW, What a lucky boy you are from the morning.
Ouch! What are you doing ?
Hikari: Suzuhara, don't talk such a stupind things!
Hey, replace water in the vase. You are on duty this week.
Touji: What a noisy girl..
Hikari: What did you say?
Shinji: He will be controled [after he gets married], Touji will.
Asuka: You will as well.
Shinji: How come you say I will be controled?
Asuka: YES. I told nothing but the truth.
Shinji: Why?
Asuka: You are what you appear to be.
Shinji: Asuka, You are always speak ..
Kensuke: Well, peaceful.
Touji: Teacher Misato is coming!
Fool Torio: WOWOWOW.
Touji: Nice is Teacher Misato.
Hikari,Asuka: That trio of fools, They are truly stupid.
Hikari: Stand up. Bow. Sit down.
Misato: Boys be glad! Today, I introduce you the transferee
everybody is talking about.
Rei: I am Ayanami Rei. Nice to meet you!
Shinji: WOW!
Rei: You! You are that stupid guy that peeped my panty this morning.
Asuka: NO, Stop! Don't say such a thing.
It's you that showed to Shinji!
Rei: You shit, why do you cover that guy?
Does it mean, you two are the cop of tea?
Asuka: Childhood friend. You shit!
Hikari: Stop! It's school time. Be quiet!
Misato: Well, You are enjoying. I am curious as well.
Go ahead.
Students: Laugh
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Shinji: I've got it. This is also a world.
The possiblity within me.
The me at the moment is not always the me as I am.
There are many myselves.
Yes. There must be the me who is not the Eva pilot.
Misato: Thinking so, the real world itself is not always bad.
Shinji: The real world might not always be bad.
Yet, I hate myself.
Makoto: It's your mind that conceives that the reality is bad
and hateful.
Shigeru: The mind which confuses the reality with the truth.
Maya: The view angle, the position. If these are slightly different,
the things inside the mind will change a lot.
Ryouji: The truthes are as many as people.
Kensuke: But there's only one truth that you have,
which is formed of the narrowed view of the world,
That's revised information to protect yourself,
the twisted truth.
Touji: Oh, yes. the view of the world that one can
have is quite small.
Hikari: Yes, one measures things only by one's own small
measure.
Asuka: One see things with the truth given by others.
Misato: Happy in the sunny day.
Rei: Gloomy in the rainy day.
Asuka: If taught so are you, you always think so.
Ritsuko: Although You may enjoy rainy days.
Fuyutsuki: Through the different way of conceiving, change into
very different thing will the truth, the weak thing.
Ryouji: The truth within a human is such cheap that
people wish to know the more deep truth.
Gendou: It's only that you are not used to be liked by people.
Misato: So, you don't have to look upon other's face.
Shinji: Yet, don't you hate me?
Asuka: You idiot! It's you that is always trying to think so.
Shinji: Yet, I hate myself.
Rei: Those who hate oneselves cannot love or trust others.
Shinji: I am wicked, coward, weak and ..
Misato: If you know yourself, you can be kind to others.
Shinji: I hate myself.
But, I might be able to love myself.
I might be allowed to stay here.
Yes. I am nothing but I.
I am I. I wish to be I.
I wish to stay here as do I.
I can stay here as do I!
People: Congratulations!
Shinji: Thank you!
Thank you, my father.
Good bye, my mother.
And to the all children,
Congratulations!
Thu Sep 11, 2014 8:20 pm
